on my own
I’ve tried. Tried to hold on to the existing happiness. And no matter how much I want to believe that everything will be alright, things just turns the other way around. As I’m typing, nothing taste as sweet as it was, how a minute can change almost everything. Even tears can’t temporarily kill the pain. Pretending is a very short term issue, the reality will soon start to haunt you.
I just want to pick up the phone and call. But I know, the others really tired, while another’s studying hard. I can’t keep disturbing their times just for me. I can’t believe that what’s predicted will be true. We’ll each be busy with our life. Somehow, April’s going to be last of times together. Ones with the biggest examinations, while the others having very important matters to handle. Academic & family must be first priority. And I, have major tests, personal project, saving the school’s ass and the op to worry about. I dont’t want to die just yet, but I want this heart to stop it’s emotions which I know will hinder my every move. It’s bad enough I don’t want to trouble anyone, it wouldn’t help if these feelings still flow.
I know, I’ve promised that your special day will be the most memorable, fabulous and blissful moment. Its not everyday one turns legal part one. I’ve been waiting for the time of preparation, the rushing to shop for the perfect stuff just to ensure that one smile from you. Yes, from now till then we both will be very occupied with our own stuff. What I’m going to say may sound really stupid, but after that day, I felt such a big difference. And with so many duties that’s coming our way now, it’s not going to help. I want to be positive, but I just can’t. I’ll hold on. I want to hold on, till that day. I’ll see that one very last smile from you. And then, I’ll leave everything to fate.
For: pm only
For all these years, I’ve been alone. So, what differance will it make, celebrating the special day alone.
True love lasts forever.
Forever and ever, baby.
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Nad, you should have made the call, you know. I will always be here to listen and studying will never be as important as listening to a broken heart. I know it sounds cheesy, lol.
The point is, I will never be too busy for you.
And it’s not called disturbing and I will never regard a call from you as disturbing.
Anyway, I hope things are fine now, give me a call if you wanna talk.
<3 BFF